..On Forgiveness

LISTEN:
THOSE WHO HAVE HURT YOU IN THE PAST CANNOT CONTINUE TO HURT YOU NOW UNLESS YOU HOLD ON TO THE PAIN THROUGH RESENTMENT.

YOUR PAST IS PAST!

NOTHING WILL CHANGE IT. YOU ARE ONLY HURTING YOURSELF WITH YOUR BITTERNESS.  FOR YOUR OWN SAKE, LEARN FROM IT, AND THEN LET IT GO!

one of the most valuable lesson I've learned throughout my life:

FORGIVENESS IS A LONG-TERM PROCESS..

nevertheless,

WE SHOULD FORGIVE, BUT IT'S FOOLISHNESS TO FORGET!

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮

Missing :|

There are so many things I miss.

things that were once a part of this crap I call my life.

There are certain things that we should forget but we couldn't, or rather we wouldn't.

The moments that once took our breath away. 

The moment when you look straight into that 'someone's' eye and you feel free.

I miss that feeling.

The feeling of having a life with lesser misery and difficulties.  

The life of a person who seems to have hugged the world and let it sleep to its arms, and welcomed life, as if it has been a good long-lost friend.

Sometimes, people tend to forget.  And sometimes, those people are the ones you thought would never forget.

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They say life is full of mysteries.  I say, Life, in itself is a big mystery.  A mystery that we have to solve, and we have the freedom to do it alone or not.

I chose not to.  I choose to spend every waking hour of my life with people I love and with people I care about.  I choose to discover new and exciting things with the people who accepts me for everything, flaws and all.

Now, I realized, I've been selfish to myself.  For drowning to my own shallow thoughts.

I've really got nothing more to say.

I miss things. (and if only a few, only I, knows exactly what it is) :)

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮

Life and Lies

we only live once in this lifetime..

and it is our responsibility to do whatever we want just to make our lives worth living..

we live in a world FULL of sins. Or shall I say, we live in a world of SINS..

SINS that would eventually make us regret THINGS that has been said and done..

THINGS with possible and bona fide reasons.. 

every lies that we've said should have a rationale behind it..

may it be good or bad, may it cause a lot of damage and impair your ability to  trust others and to have the privilege to be trusted..

In this very moment of my life, I have said enough lies, and I know deep down myself that this is the right thing for me to do. Call me a liar, call me a swindler, It doesn't matter to me..

I might as well do this than to complicate things..

I refused to acknowledge that something exist within me, I denied and ignored my true feelings.. I'm in a state of denial.. maybe I got you thinking that i'm a coward, but hell, I'm just being stupid just to make everything work.. because I know that it is selfish of me to exploit my sentiment..

I'm happy when you're happy. I'm never happy when you're down, but I'm not telling that I also feel the same way..  I'm not in full control of everything.. I don't know what to do about it..

anyways,my point is,

I am NEVER  afraid to lose you..

because for the record,

I NEVER had you!

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮

Time

Image by AF-Photography via Flickr

"Filipino time" -- a stereotype or a fact?


Time is one of the elements I value, and I think everyone should too. 
It is precious and delicate that once it passed, it would never come back nor you could ever take back what was done.


We tend to get things done whenever they get done.  We always have this thing called "mamaya na", and sometimes, when you set important matters aside, it turns into shambles, into a mess, and worst you could never bring the pieces back together.


This is how life should work, realize the value of time because, seriously, it is of the essence.  Never waste a fleeting second of your life, and most importantly, NEVER WASTE A FLEETING SECOND OF ANYONE'S LIFE.  


Life is an unanswered question, it would forever be, but let's still believe in the dignity and importance of the question itself.

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮

EMERGENCY

 via Wikipedia

”Just when I thought that our group would not have cases for our ER rotation, the last day came.”

ER experience is the best, so far. And I’m hoping there’ll be more exciting things to come.

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Yun.. kala ko hindi na talaga kami magkaka-case. So here’s the story (hindi ako magaling sa story telling :D pasensya na po.).

Our duty was in Angono General Hospital, E.R, under Sir Edwin Malic.

We share duty hours with Unciano -- so that’s 4 hours Emergency Room, 4 hours IE room.

Alternate kami kung 2-6 and 6-10. So ayun na nga, ganyan sched sa duty.

During the first few days, napansin ko, pag sila nasa ER, napaka daming tao tsaka parang lagi silang nagkakagulo, tapos pag turn na namin, wala, chill na chill lang, pasanda-sandali may dadating (na patient) , tapos chill ulit, may dadating, chill ulit (mejo didiscuss si sir), ganun ganun lang.

Same thing happened every single day.  Mostly, ang ginagawa namin, the usual VS, prepare ng meds, TSB, O2ation, nebulize, ayun, tapos mostly tetanus yung nabibigay nameng meds tsaka skin test kasi karamihan ng na-i-ER nasugatan ng kawayan, nasaksak ng kutsilyo, nabubog, tsaka mga nakagat ng aso,

(kaya nagsawa kamay ko kakabukas ng ampule)

Tapos, nung last day, eto na nga, we were assigned 6-10 sa ER, kasi we had our “case presentation” (hahaha) ng 2-6.  Kala ko, hindi masyado busy, kasi nung mga first few hours, nakatayo lang kami, pero maya-maya may dumating na patient, isu-suture, kala ko ako mag-aassist, pero yung groupmate ko in-assign ni sir.  After nun, (umuulan nga pala :D) medyo dumadami mga patient na sinusugod sa ER.  Merong isang buntis, for IE, eh that time, dahil siguro last day, medyo maaga umuwi yung mga taga-Unciano, so kami din nag-assist sa IE room.  Dalawa yata o tatlo sa groupmates ko yung sumama sa kanya tapos narinig ko pa siya na “manganganak na ko”. Tapos meron namang manong na nasaksak sa kamay (medico-legal case) for suture din, ako na pinag-assist ni sir (actually, nagvolunteer na ko, hahaha).  Sabi sa ‘kin ni sir “hindi ko mapipirmahan yung manual mo, kasi pag medico-legal walang case number, baka kwestyunin ng PRC” dun naman ako nalungkot, pero nag-assist pa din.  Habang inaasist ko si doc sa suturing (at habang nagkwekwentuhan kami :D) may narinig kaming umiiyak na baby, galing sa IE room --- nanganak yung buntis dun, ang kulit, medyo (medyo lang naman) nagkagulo. Tapos may bago na namang dumating na for suture, sa ulo, lasing na manong.  Iba naman nag assist, ako pumunta sa IE room para tumulong ng onti.  Tapos nagka problem pa sandali sa suction machine, pero naayos naman.  Sa last day pala kami hahagupitin ng pasyente pati ng bagyo.  Napagod ako pero nag enjoy ako sa ER.

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮

Jace

Search for your name in urban dictionary, and you'll be surprised with what you'll see. :)

Jace-

 young man, known for his quirkiness, reluctant to admit he's a good guy. one good at pleasuring da ladies. see: one hot mo-fo

1. An extraordinary person who doesn't realize how wonderful he truley is.
2. A beautiful human being.

jace is an awsome brother and is willing to serve our country for us.. god bless jace

jace can mean absoltely anything. It can be a noun, verb, or adjective.

"Suck my jace"
"Did you just jace?"
"Dude, thats jace."

This is not an 'actual' blog post.  Just havin' fun. :D Try it.
http://www.urbandictionary.com

Half-time

Many people say that the hardest part of college is the junior year.

I can't hardly believe that HALF of my nursing life (and by that, I mean nsg. student life) is over.
..and to think, I almost gave up.

to be honest, I don't enjoy this as much as other students do. sakto lang..

because when at times I feel fulfilled and there's something inside that tells me to go on and continue, I really try to encourage myself to move forward.

Nursing is hard. Everybody knows that.

you just feel fulfilled whenever you do something right, something great, something beyond your duty. ..and that's more than enough salary (at least, for now, :D) you could ever get.


but, it still does not supersede all the stresses I've been through.
honestly, it's not [merely] the subjects that makes it hard, at times, what makes our lives difficult are those people that surrounds us -- selfish people who only seem to think of themselves so much that they tend to irritate and annoy people surrounding them..

I was never a leader, and I never would have dreamed about being one. Because just by merely thinking of the idea itself, I feel like I'm gonna get sick.

anyways,

time flies by so fast. yesterday, I was just a simple nursing student who knows nothing about the course at all. Now, I know little, and I'm trying to learn more.

The path we've taken is dark, we just have to feed our mind, open our eyes, and brighten up whatever is ahead of us.

Yup. I've decided to finish this course. and I'll try my best to enjoy this as much as I can.

..fulfill your short term goals first, then, plan for the long one.


P.S

To nursing,

Tatapusin kita, then, Hello culinary arts! :))

-Jace Bernabe

LOVE & PEACE ♥ ☮